I dont feel comfortable

i dont feel comfortable in my life right now, it feels unsafe, uprooted, different. different isnt necessarily bad. but this different is me closing down. not being able to openly be who i am, having to hide aspects of my very nature and being. Its a tightness, without freedom in the present. I feel like i am put upon that i am suppose to understand without being understood. That what he wants is the old version of me. Oddly enough he didnt know that person either, but that person was more accommodating maybe even went as far as enabling. This person i am doesnt easily go into hiding. Has a sharper tongue not to lash out but to get to a point, lets not waste our days with idle chatter, lets speak deep and meaningful. Life is so short. I feel it must be filled with a certain passion. I feel a death though and maybe its just a growth? That tightness is indescribable. Possibly, not far from being buried alive or put in a small box where one cannot move there arms. Fear instilling, cramped. I dont feel light, weightless, able to fly to be free. Trapped as a harnessed bird..been here before. maybe its all in my mind and not actually how it is??